The lightbulb was growing very dim
It was difficult to see anything clearly
I was running in a forward motion toward the same mistake I’ve made time and time again
Chasing after that which is not interested in me
Making it a personal challenge to win it
In the process, change everything I am to be everything it wanted me to be
I am a chameleon
And the lightbulb started to slowly produce more light
Where is Victoria?
I don’t care, I answer
What does she want out of life?
I don’t matter, leave me alone
Why must you chase someone?
I’m not lonely, I just like a good challenge
When have you ever been completely at peace with yourself?
I don’t remember
I’m desperately seeking Victoria, can you help me find her?
Old habits are hard to break, I may not be strong enough
Why must you surround yourself with people?
I’m afraid to be alone
Who are you?
I’ve never really tried to figure that out
Then we shall start today, I tell myself
I’m ready, is the very weak answer given back.
The lightbulb shatters
Only thru my darkness shall I find the light