And you shall go
But not as you had planned
For this was never meant to be your plan
You have prayerfully asked for someone to support you
But the moment anyone threatens to come close your mind produces so many questions
It is looking at their person, their very soul, their entire life desperately searching for an unbearable flaw
And your mind does not disappoint
Time after time finding that needle in every haystack proving beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you are safer alone
And you profess that you do not judge
Yet it is you that does not trust
Ask yourself this
How will you move forward?
And if God sends you someone
Will you let your mind then deny that gift?
One time, two times, twenty times, perhaps for an eternity
And who are you to play a hand in God’s will?
Who are you to judge yourself and determine your own fate?
Is this not the exact thing that you have prayed for?
To be selfless
Yet it is that very self that threatens to hold you back forever
Confining you to a different cage
One deemed unworthy of love
Did God not create woman for man?
And yet you have decided woman was created to be alone
Sentencing yourself to an eternal Hell on earth
God has indeed surrounded you with family and friends that will support you through Christ
And yet you make the ultimate decision as to if He will bless you with someone to love and support you
Do not pray for that which you are unwilling to accept
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.