There is so much in my head…
It needs to come out
There is no room
I feel as if it is suffocating my very being
It is all jumbled
Wanting to scream
What does it all mean?
What is it telling me?
Speak to me!!
I tell my thoughts to slow down..
They refuse to listen
Racing inside and bouncing off the insides of my skull like a million super balls
What do you want, I ask them?
And there are so many
All bright and loudly colored….orange, yellow, pink, green, red.
The color list continues to grow every day
And with each addition….the bouncing increases
Faster and higher
More Collisions all the time
I can’t make them stop
I close my eyes
They are still there….
The colors now more vivid even than with eyes open
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME!!
I scream at them from the inside
There is no response
My eyes reopen
What could all these little rubber ball want to say?
Calming down, I quietly say to them….who are you?
We are who you are
What do you mean?
We combine to make up your life
But isn’t it too fast…too much?
Close your eyes again they tell me
And I do
I relax again
I begin to watch them…this time it is almost as if they are in slow motion
And I am taking in their every movement
They combine so beautifully as I silently watch them
And I realize what they are showing me
In this moment it completely takes my breath away…
I am colorful
I am bouncy
I am colliding with so many people at any given time
So uncontrollably in control
A most beautiful mess
And I wouldn’t want to imagine me any other way
So if you see me out….
Look very closely
And you may just see them
In the way I walk?
Through my smile
Behind my eyes
In what I am wearing
In how I hold myself?
I am a hundreds of colorful super balls all bouncing at once
And now that we have met…..
You have added one more to my life
And I will always be thankful for that
If you remember only one thing about me….
Let it be to release your super balls