God here…..go ahead and be broken

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I remember the day that beautiful castle of glass you had constructed

completely shattered

It was a little over a year ago

The shards of glass

One hundred large jagged pieces that no one could see from your outside

How you held it all together for so many years

Your castle

Indeed impressive

It sparkled in the sun

The broken pieces of glass

Sharp edges embedding themselves internally

Deeper than one could even fathom

I remember as you cried out to him

Screaming

You were bleeding on the inside

You fell to the floor wedged in a corner between the bed and the dresser

Dark crimson blood pooling in the very pit of your stomach

Continuing to rise higher with every scream

A silent killer

Threatening to choke off your airway

There were no more tears to cry

Your body finally void of the ingredients to make them

That sick feeling settling in

This was never real

It never existed

The love felt all those years

Something your mind had led you to believe

You had wanted it so badly

As he stared at you dumbfounded, the final apology came

Empty as all the others had been

Confessions from a cruel, heartless man

Void of any true meaning

As you stared at him, he suddenly looked so small

Distant

Foreign

Unlovable

How had you seen anything more?

As you watched, he attempted to produce tears

A pathetic performance at best

The one thing you had waited so many years to see

Void of any true meaning

And now…. you reflect on the year gone by

You are stronger

But so weak

You are happier

And yet so sad

You are someone

And yet desire to be no one

You are alone

And yet God will always be with you

It is enough

It is enough

It will always be enough

Be broken

But do not ever rebuild yourself with glass

Only to be broken again

Take this time

Let God heal you

He can do it

So let Him help you continue to remove your broken pieces

One at a time

 

 

 

 

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