I woke up so refreshed
I’ve let someone go
And guess what…..they’re nowhere to be found
Am I surprised?
Yes and No
If I am honest I have to remember this is to be God driven
If God wants it will
If He doesn’t, it won’t
It’s really that simple
I was sad for a day
And there may be a few more mixed in from time to time
But I won’t stay there anymore
It’s not where I will ever belong again
I deserve more
I’m a good person
And I need to be me
I asked my older daughter to look at the outfit I was wearing
“How does it look?” I asked
“Well, I don’t like all the colors and patterns mixed together myself,” she started to say…
She then paused for a moment , smiled and looked up at me with that sparkle in her eyes which was directly inherited from her mother and firmly stated….” it looks exactly like you.”
“Perfect” I said, “That was exactly the look I was going for. I don’t ever want to be anyone else.”
She laughed, “I love you just the way you are mom.”
So many people have supported me throughout this past year….
“Why are you trying to be someone else?”
“We love you just the way you are. Your crazy and all.”
“Nobody’s ever asked you to be anything else.”
I got caught up in trying to sell myself
Not exactly sure why
I will not have to sell myself to the one God has chosen for me
They will love me just as I am
I honestly have no desire to be anyone other than me
And only I can “own” that
I’m too crazy for most, unorganized, always run late, can be extremely stubborn, spontaneous, outgoing, very vocal on topics I am passionate about, and my filter is…well….mostly unfilteredJ
I love it here
It feels like me
I thank God for continuing to help me own it
It’s hard when you’ve allowed yourself to conform for so many years
I’m getting there…..
All alone with God’s help
So f you see me out, don’t forget to say hi!!
I do so love meeting new people
How will you recognize me?
I’ve been told the crazy hair is a dead giveaway….
As is the infectious smile and my unique clothing style
Oh….And I’m a big hugger…..so make sure to give me a hug!!
I’ll hug you back tenfold!!
And don’t forget to let God help you “own” your true self too….
That’s the only thing he wants you to be